If the devil dances in empty pockets, he was having a ball in mine. I was empty. I had let issues, drama and others tear me down to nothing. I looked around and found myself surrounded by nothing but negative people & negative situations. I don't even know for sure when it started but there I was. Angry, bitter, hateful & just an unhappy person. That's not who I am but was surely who I had become.
Sometimes in life, you have to take a step back and look very hard at yourself. You have to either like what you see or you need to change it. I chose the later option.
Over the last year, life has pounded us like a fence post it seems and it just all became too much. I think the Good Lord was trying to tell me it was time to step back and gain some perspective. I refused to listen. Stress was everywhere, drama was a constant companion but I refused to listen. My health tanked. Acid reflux literally ate me alive from the inside out. My hair fell out in huge chunks yet, He kept trying to talk to me. I just kept ignoring Him.
He yelled at me.
Now I know without a doubt, that God has carried me through some hard times but to hear His voice was something I will never ever forget. Let me just assure you when God yells at you, you listen.
Everyone was gone for the day. I was off work due to being sick. I had found out someone I considered a friend was anything but and they were causing the vast majority of the drama in my family with my kids. We needed money for more than one issue. I honestly couldn't complete a thought without another one popping up. I hit the shower thinking I needed to just get my day going. My mind was just all over the place. Then it happened.
God told me I had to get Satan out of my house. I said "uh ok" then another voice said "well that's just crazy no you don't", and I got scared. Y'all I'm talking, don't want to be home alone scared! It was all I could do not to run. But I didn't run, I listened.
God said "GET SATAN OUT OF YOUR HOUSE NOW!"
There was ZERO denying what I had heard. I was commanded to clean house and I did. I kicked Satan and his presence out my life, the lives of my husband and children, and out of my house for good. I walked through every room in my home, shouting at him to leave this family alone we belonged to God and always will. I ended up in my carport with a feeling of victory I cannot describe. It came straight from God. I walked back into my house and the whole place felt different. I felt different. I felt His presence walking beside me.
Satan had been working overtime trying to tear us apart and I let him. I let him take root in me without even realizing it but God knew. I let others negativity & bad attitudes cloud what I knew was true. I let others actions towards my family cause me to grow angry and frustrated when I should have just handed the situation over to Him in the first place. Others are so unhappy with their own lives they can't handle those that are and will do or say anything, and I mean anything, to cause trouble. The old saying that misery loves company is true but I refuse to entertain that company anymore.
God said He wants better for me. He wants better for all of us. Even those who deny Him, those who pretend to know Him & those who think He could never love them. He loves us all, even when we lose focus and forget. We just have to be willing to listen to Him.
I wish I could make the world feel the peace and joy I have held in my heart since the day God yelled at me. It's unreal. Trust Him to handle your conflicts. Seek His council on those you bring into your inner circle. He will always bring you what is best for you!
I am back home these days being a wife and mom full time. I am truly happy for the first time in a long while. I am not stressed out. My acid reflux is pretty much gone, my hair has stopped falling out and I am waking up everyday with a joy in my heart I can't contain.
Happy feels good y'all!
Sandy
Ephesians 4:26
Don't sin by letting anger control you. Don't let the sun go down while you are still angry, for anger give a foothold to the devil.
Proverbs 22:24-25
Make no friendship with an angry man, and with a furious man thou shall not go, lest you learn his ways and get a snare to thy soul.
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